WOW here we are and I LOVE being with YOU
See if you can let that in. Of course, we are on audio, you aren’t right in front of me, I can’t see you and you can’t see me yet I am speaking directly to you. I’ll say it again.
I LOVE BEING WITH YOU. Take a breath, let it in. YOU ARE WONDERFUL TO BE WITH. That’s another version of it.
I had a conversation with a dear friend of mine the other day and one of the topics was about how we get in our own way. He was sharing about being loved and yet he had lived most of his life (he is in his 40’s) feeling unloved, even unwanted. He asked me, why do you think it is easier to believe the lessor versions of who we are than the bigger more abundant versions?
Consider that you and I “get off the hook” so to speak of having to show up “great” when we are caught up in our smallness, our insufficiencies. That is just where the ego, wants us to be. It’s cozy there, we don’t have to grow or face much in those nooks and crannies of our life and YET we keep seeking, at some level we want to know our greatness, we want to be filled and full and yet to access that, that which we want at some core level we need to be willing to empty ourselves our first.
Listen to this poem:
Willing to experience aloneness,
I discover connection everywhere;
Turning to face my fear,
I meet the warrior who lives within me;
Opening to my loss and pain and ignorance,
I remember who I am and what I’m here for.
Surrendering into emptiness,
I find fullness without end.
Each condition I flee from pursues me,
Each condition I welcome transforms me
and becomes itself transformed
into the blessing it always was.
– Jennifer Welwood
I’ve shared before about being guided to give everything I owned away, and how it was in that experience that I realized how abundantly I was provided for.
It is nearly impossible to stay empty. I urge you to try it. Clean off a kitchen counter, or your car and see how long it takes before things start filling that space once again.
It is the same with our minds, we can’t keep it empty. Meditation is about emptying it for a second or two, if you get up to a few moments you are consider a master, that is how difficult it is.
And yet, it is in the emptiness that we experience fullness.
As the country begins to reopen, I find myself having to push myself out of the nest of our farm. I have been here for over 300 days, more than enough time to create a new pattern, a pattern of staying here, not going there. I have all the justifications I need to stay put, and yet I know that real freedom is being able to stay or being able to go, freely.
I love the idea of treating each time you go to bed as a small death, the end of a day, the end of a time, and each morning like a birth, the beginning of something new, a rebirth.
So as we open up again, let’s do that. Let’s acknowledge the end of something, you pick what you are ending during this time, and the beginning or birthing of something new, something you are inspired by, something that opens your heart and invites you to celebrate. ok?
So as I sign off and until next week, each night name what is dying and in the morning name what is being born anew.